Listening to: Invidia - Delain
Reading: Walking Dead comics
Watching: Orphan Black, TWD, Game of Thrones
Just replacing the last. Don't really have anything interesting to say. I'm still mad into Walking Dead stuff, and I know most of my watchers do not care for that, so...
Yeah. Nothing much else going on.
I think my social anxiety or maybe anxiety in general has gotten worse. It all started back in 2013 when I went to see a movie with my dad (Star Trek)...I didn't feel well but I went anyway. Well, I ended up puking in the theater. Thankfully there was barely anyone in there and nobody noticed. But ever since then, I've had an anxiety I can't shake... that I will vomit in public. My stomach has become sensitive to many foods and I get sick-feeling. (this might be due to my gallbladder sucking ass however) So yeah, I barely go to movies anymore. If I can anywhere except for work, if I leave the house for -anything- I start feeling sick, nervous, anxious, my throat gets tight, my stomach bubbles. Things I used to enjoy like movies or concerts...they're just a source of anxiety now. I've actually had paid tickets to a Rifftrax showing and a concert, and I skipped them because of it. Life is taking everything away from me, what little joy I even had to begin with...
Add that to my everlasting state of being single, no sex life, no friends, my shit-for-talent at art and writing, my accomplishment of absolute zero in life..it's just... what's the point. I only stay alive for TWD shit at this point in time. XD I seriously say 'hey there's an issue with my fav character in May, hopefully I won't die before that!' Because that's truly all I have to look forward to.
Wow. I ended up whining again. Go figure...
*beats head against wall*