Randommmm spewwwww
So who else is looking forward to Thanksgiving?
I'm not It's one of my least favorite holidays XD It's boring and nothing but a celebration of gluttony. I don't even like eating turkey dinner XD It's just 'yeah. turkey. yay.'

I hate it when a stinky customer comes down the aisle and their stench lingers behind them. Then other people come down the aisle and probably think I reek. >< The other day some dude left his disgusting aroma so I grabbed a little body spray off the shelf and squirted the aisle XDDD Smelly smelly customers. Smelly annoying customers.

Finally deduced that I have RSI 'repetitive strain injury' in my right arm which is why it's been annoying me for so long now. Haven't gone to a doctor because I don't see the point in paying someone to tell me what I already know It sucks though. My finger joints get sore, and the tendons in my hand feel like... someone's pulling on them, like. My arm will just have an achy hurt feeling. It goes all the way up into my shoulder sometimes. And then, since I switched over to my left arm for mouse use...I think I'm screwing that arm up too! This week, there were two days were my left arm felt numb all day. O>O I hate body parts that are stupid and wear-out. They need to make roboticization real. Then people could replace all their shitty parts. Sooo I'm just trying to limit my time on the computer more, for now.

And because it's not my journal without a helping of emo (IE: SKIP THIS PART)... I've been feeling isolated lately. I feel like... I listen to people, I try to be interested (or act interested) in the things they show me and such... but then when it comes to me wanting the same, it just doesn't happen. This is mostly with my parents, I guess. I don't get emotional support. I can't share my feelings with anyone. They just churn inside me, day in and day out.
And I feel like a novelty friend. I'm the friend who's just a throw-away. I'm not funny or interesting or engaging enough for long-term usage. I'm an diversion and then I'm tossed when I lose my novelty factor, or when I reveal too much of myself and become an emo-laden burden. My personality disorder keeps me locked inside myself. I feel like my parents don't know me, and they don't really care. I can't make friends. I don't know my extended family very well. I feel so jealous of people who are close to their grandparents and cousins and aunts and uncles. I feel...I could drop off the earth and I wouldn't be missed. Maybe someone would blink an eye or shrug and say, without much emotion, 'oh, that's too bad.' And then go back to their interesting and engaging lives. And...it's not like it's everyone else's fault. It's me and my stupid, broken brain.

Well that was fun
*FAAAAAAART*


I'm thinking of dying my hair red. WHOOO FAKE REDHEAD GO ME

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5 Song Meme
“THE RULES: List five songs that you are currently loving. It doesn’t matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they’re any good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artists, and the songs in your blog, then ‘tag’ five other bloggers/friends to see what they’re listening to.”

1 Sevendust - Follow [link]
2 Three Days Grace - Last to Know [link]
3 Paula Cole - Nietzsche's Eyes [link]
4 Above & Beyond - Alone Tonight [link]
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